If I Was your Girl

If I Was your Girl

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Amanda Hardy only wants to fit in at her new school, but she is keeping a big secret, so when she falls for Grant, guarded Amanda finds herself yearning to share with him everything about herself, including her previous life as Andrew.
Publisher: New York : Flatiron Books, 2016.
Edition: First edition.
ISBN: 9781250078407
Characteristics: 280 pages ; 22 cm


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Amanda is the new girl at a new school, just trying to fit in and figure out how to talk to her crush, Grant, in coherent sentences. But being with Grant means telling opening up about her past, never an easy thing for a trans girl.

Amanda is the new girl at school, just trying to fit in. When she meets sweet, easygoing Grant she struggles with her desire to share her past while also guarding her heart. Written by a trans author about a trans girl and featuring a trans model on the cover.

A story about a trans girl written by a trans woman!

Amanda's fresh start at a new school is going better than she ever could have dreamed, but will her huge secret ruin everything she's built?

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Jul 07, 2020

If I Was Your Girl, written by Meredith Russo tells the story of Amanda Hardy, a transgender girl who happens to be the new student at school. Due to the heavy stigma revolving around her identity, she refuses to open up to anyone at school despite wanting to make new friends. This was until she meets Grant, a guy at school who she happens to slowly fall in love with, so much that she feels the need to open up to him about her secret. However, as sweet of a person as Grant is, she’s beyond terrified that she’ll lose the only person in her life that is willing to form a relationship with her. She is afraid that there will be someone out there that will perceive her as her former self Andrew rather than who she is now; Amanda. One thing that I really liked about the book is that it was written by a transgender author. The fact that the author knows exactly what Amanda is going through shows the authenticity of her experiences, and it makes it seem as if the book is a slight autobiography of her life.

Mar 26, 2020

The best and most unconventional coming of age story. It gives you a raw, unfiltered look inside the life of a transitioned transgender teenager who tries to live the life of a normal high school kid. It's very eye opening and it's the kind of book that leaves you feeling content. It's definitely not generic. Meredith Russo has done an excellent job at keeping it real to the core. The best!! I love it because it gives such a nice meaning and it’s so eye opening. A book similar to this one is The Art of Being Normal.

Feb 06, 2020

I really enjoyed this book. At first, I didn't know it was about a trans person and I was questioning reading it seeing as I have never read a book with the main character like Amanda Hardy. I feel like I recommend this book to teens or a middle schooler like me. It shows the life and the struggle of somebody different than us and it allows us to be in the character's shoes and see what her life is like as a trans person. I feel like I can better understand people like her more and I can see there ideas and views of there gender identity. This has taught me many new things about people and I also learned the lesson in the story that it is okay to be different and that people should accept them. I rate this book 5 stars and recommend it for a good read and to learn something new through a character people can see had different.

Amanda has grown up with a secret. Amanda is in the process of Transitioning from Andrew. She's starting fresh at a new school, with new friends, and has also found a boy she really likes. She's terrified that if her secret is revealed, she may not find the acceptance she was hoping for when she had first arrived. I really loved this book and found myself completely enthralled in Amanda's story and felt every emotion with every word she wrote.

JCLTiffanyR May 08, 2019

Readers looking to gain perspective on the experience of trans teens will find this an interesting read. It's an important #ownvoices story, albeit one told without literary flare. It's straightforward and doesn't rely on the trappings of lavish wordsmithing.

VaughanPLMichael Feb 14, 2019

This book really hit me in all the emotions.

With so many different YA romances coming across my desk, this one really stood out for me. It's so much more than just a straight up romance, it tackles very real identity issues.

I've rarely connected so completely with a character the way I connected with Amanda. I lost track how many times I nodded and thought 'yup, I've been there'. I know Amanda and my path are very different, but still.

Meredith's writing was superb for a first time novel. All the characters were really flushed out, even those minor characters like Layla and Anna who we only see a handful of times.

Please read this book. This has been one of the most moving books I've read to date. It's funny, heart wrenching, and emotions.

But more than all that, it's real.

Hillsboro_PaxB Jan 22, 2019

A wonderful book for fostering empathy and allyship for young transgender people, IF I WAS YOUR GIRL tells the story of a trans teenager, written by a transgender author and informed by real experiences of the transgender community. Any cisgender (non-transgender) reader looking for an engaging YA introduction to the transgender experience will find this book to be an excellent gateway for understanding.

It's worth acknowledging, as Russo does in her author's note, that Amanda's experience is very different from that of most young trans women. Amanda is straight, cis-passing, feminine, and had access to medical transition at a very young age with relatively little pushback from her parents. Russo's intention was to remove any barriers for cisgender readers in understanding Amanda as completely female. The story is therefore focused much more on interpersonal prejudice than Amanda's own struggles with dysphoria or navigating institutional transphobia. Trans readers who are not cis-passing or straight may struggle to relate to Amanda, as most of the book's tension is built on whether or not she should disclose her gender history to her new friends and boyfriend. However, given Russo's intended audience and her knack for telling a good romance, I would still recommend it to any cis or trans reader of contemporary YA.

Nov 14, 2018

A wonderful transgender coming of age story. At first, it seems like a sweet teen romance, but it turns out to be much more.

May 15, 2018

A lot of good reviews about this book I think are only warranted because it comes from the perspective of an actual trans person. For transgender readers looking for a validating and encouraging story, I advise looking to the back of the book where the author pens a letter to her fellow trans people, as well as one separately for allies. It will tell you in advance what you can expect and why she is disappointed she could not paint a more realistic picture of life as a transgender teenager. I also feel it appropriate to warn that the love interest's reactions to the protagonist's transgender status is violent and awful to read about. Not something that made me as a reader want to revisit the book any time soon. There is forced outing, small degrees of acceptance, but overall not an uplifting tale. I think it's fair for the author to write a book like this, but definitely seems like a book for ally's understanding more than healing or optimism for trans readers.

Feb 21, 2018

This is an amazing book with a great purpose. When I first saw it on the shelves of the library, I thought it was just another romance novel but it was so much more than just that. The story is really one of a kind and it's now one of my favorites. I highly recommend this book to anyone.

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May 21, 2018

Important and Brave. Read this wonderful book. Just read it.
-Jennifer Niven.

May 21, 2018

''Real and Raw and Layered and Wonderful.''
-Alex Gino

Jun 14, 2016

From the Author's Note: “It’s okay if you’re different from Amanda. She isn’t real, and you are.”

Jun 14, 2016

“There are enough people waiting to crap in your cereal without you doing it for them.”


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Jun 14, 2016

Looking for a fresh start, Amanda Hardy transfers to Lambertville High, going to live with her estranged father for the first time since her parents’ divorce. She plans to keep her head down, blend in, and finish her senior year of high school. Then she wants to move up north for university, and hopefully escape some of the prejudice and fear that drove her out of her school in Atlanta, where everyone knew that Amanda had recently transitioned. But when she meets and falls for Grant, her plans to lie low in Lambertville become a lot more complicated. She wants Grant to accept all of her, including her history, but coming out in Lambertville may be even riskier than it was in Atlanta.

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